As I promised...

...I will share the good, the bad and the ugly.

Here's the "bad" and the "ugly" (Wow, I now know those are substantival adjectives! :))

Could NOT stay awake last night to study; went to bed at NINE. Unheard of. First time before 11 in two weeks!! Promised myself that I would work really hard all day Saturday and then take the next quiz. Fearful - because I left class yesterday in a total fog over the new verb tenses. DENSE fog. Figured I would "take it apart" slowly and go over and over it until the fog lifted.

So here I was at 6 AM, raring to go.

HOWEVER, I couldn't...

...because I couldn't seem to remember ANYTHING! The simplest things had evaporated! My hard drive had been deleted. Things I had learned in the beginning (was the LOGOS and the LOGOS...oops). Everything felt jumbled. Panic set in. Fear of failure - not before others but fear of not reaching my goal. How could I do the remaining four weeks?!

Oh God, have mercy!! A real prayer, prayed from my heart. Over and over.

Then I opened the book to the beginning (I remember the Greek word for that!) and made myself do all the exercises - again. And I made myself do all the "Additional" translation work we never get to, there for the practise. And I desperately needed the practise.

And slowly, working through them, seeing a slightly quicker recognition after each hour, the panic has lifted. "I am loosed!" You should laugh there - that is the example verb we work from. :) With a better grasp on the whole two weeks, I am ready to dig into yesterday.

God is merciful. God is good.

After the bad and the ugly, comes the good. Praise God!