Cheers and Tears

Haven't had a window to write, so here's the update...

First - the test!

I got an A-!!!! WHOHOO! When I saw it, I sucked the air out of the room. (I should add that I found out Saturday when my study buddies said the grades were posted on line. DUH. BEFORE computers, we had to wait until the next class period to learn our grades! Felt like a dinosaur.)

Cheers indeed! I'm already doing the math: one more test, a midterm and a final. With one score an A-, there's a good chance I could actually pass Greek!!!!!!!

Now for the Tears. Like "The Ten Minute Celebration" we pressed on - to relative pronouns. I sat in my secret zone almost as an observer, appearing to be following the lecture - what the heck is he talking about???! The other pronouns were somewhat comprehensible but would require a TON of memorization AFTER thoroughly understanding their usage, but the relatives!

During the last 20 minutes it started coming into focus - and the next step was to prepare to be tested on it. Everyone filed out. Everyone but me, that is. I have started taking a lunch and simply staying in the classroom, utilizing its huge white boards and writing declensions over and over. My heart rate was already elevated.

Then my first study buddy told me she would be studying with another student, a very good decision since he was really on top of it and could actually explain things to her. Maybe it was the reminder of my own tenuous grasp on the class that hit my Achilles. The truth isn't always pain free. One student has already dropped out, which now puts me at the bottom or next to the bottom amongst the 8 whizzes. How come NONE of them are groaning and struggling??! If I got an A-, there were a LOT of A+!

The proverbial straw hit when my computer wouldn't boot up. Stress over the new material and the reality of needing to master EVERY new material AND all the vocab in order to continue, loss of my study buddy and stress over a stupid computer put me over the edge...

...and at the end of Day 6 I experienced my first tears.

And I also experienced my Kurios' (Lord's) marvelous grace, "grace so abundant and free"!

1. My computer was fixed and back within an hour. I had little hope when I went to Computer Services: no one would be there, there would be an endless line of others ahead of me, no one would have time to help me, and the fee would be ridiculous. Instead, one person was there, not another needy person in sight, she was eager to help - and it was free. :)

2. My other study buddy continues to want to meet with me. Her help yesterday was invaluable.

3. I took my quiz on the pronouns late last night - and I am pretty sure I passed. :)

Today we do nothing but prepare for the second major test.

Not exactly cheers - but then no tears either.

PS To the one asking if I had a Sabbath - yes! However, I had agreed PREGreek to do a dramatization of a passage in Acts 5 in costume for the services' scripture reading and the added memorization was some added stress, but it went well and I enjoyed doing it. Best part of the day was a great two hour nap! :)